My Story: The Reason Behind WHOLE

It all started on June 11th 2004. I was in the prime of my life living in the quiet New England town of Newtown, Connecticut. The warm summer air blew briskly through the great poplar trees as the river serenaded my mind in a daydreaming slumber. I jumped on my ride on lawn mower and started my weekly mowing. After about 30 minutes I began to feel discomfort in my stomach. it was nothing more than a stomach ache something easily put out of mind. I continued to chop the green grass smelling it’s fresh fragrance. Another few minutes passed and the pain began to worsen. I was finally taken hold by a terrible discomfort. I told my mother an father and we agreed that I should see my primary care physician the next day. After seeing him, he sent me to a gastroenterologist. Before I knew it, I was ordered a bunch of tests and procedures. You know those procedures 50+ year olds get. Now that didn’t make sense to a 21 year old. But I wanted answers and I wanted them now. Finally I heard the two words that would haunt me for the next 14 years…Ulcerative Colitis.

It was described to me as a non curable lifelong disease with reoccurring debilitating symptoms. I’ll spare you the details. I was shocked that someone my age can get this kind of disease. “It is an unfortunate disease,” my doctor stated. 

The questions flew through my mind… How did I get this, why me? My family never had it, I didn’t do anything wrong or different from my friends and family who don’t have it. I don’t deserve this. My mind went wild. I was written a prescription of pills and told to take 4 tablets in the morning, 4 in the afternoon, and 4 at night, “When can I get off of them!” I asked impatiently? My doctor looked at me with a stone face and bit of sorrow in his eyes and said “Never.”

Flash forward to June 2009. My Ulcerative Colitis had worsened since, and I was now taking prednisone steroids, antibiotics, and even more pills. If anyone has taken prednisone before you already know that the symptoms are challenging to say the least. Increased appetite, water retention, inability to sleep, irittability. I continued to cope with my symptoms with the combination of natural diets, aloe, fish oil, prayer. My new weight dropped down by 15 pounds, now at 135. I had less strength but was still working hard as a Physical Therapist. I earned my Doctorate degree, Certified Strength and Conditioning Specialist certification, and I had a life to live. As I treated and healed others while giving them hope, mine began to dwindle. I would stretch a patient out, and run to the bathroom, mobilize their neck, and run to the bathroom, crack their back, and run to the bathroom. Questions continued. How can I heal others, but not heal myself? I continued my journey to cure myself from Ulcerative Colitis.

Fast forwarding now to October 2015,10 years since the diagnosis. I had lost about 1/4 of my body weight, tried 30 plus holistic approaches to combat my disease, continued steroids, biological injections, immunosupressants, experimented with new medications, and the thread of life that I was desperately holding onto began to fray ever more. There was no more living, only surviving. Will power dwindled and hope began to fade. Beaten down by 10 years of chronic pain, dread, and embarrassment, my mind was clouded in darkness. I had to change something and I had to do it now, or else there wouldn’t be anything left to save. I wish I could have told you that I had found a way to cure my Ulcerative Colitis. I wish it with all my heart. I had to make a decision that would change my life forever. I had to go to a place I promised myself I would never go to. I had to go through surgical procedure that I promised myself I would never go through. Pain and suffering is terrible, but the ultimate suffering occurs when you go against your core value after realizing you are not in control. 

I had surgery and I came out battered, bruised, and utterly spent. I was pushed and squeezed through the tunnel of hope with hardly any more life left to give. In time I healed physically, but my mind was still in a place of pain. As I looked at my past and saw how I suffered, I began to realize that I was still living with the same habits as before and thinking with the same thoughts that I has with my illness. I thrived off of them for survival and they continued to stay with me. I did not want this. I did not want to live in sorrow, regret, and mental dis-ease. So I began to ask myself another question… How can I change this? How can I live and never return to that darkness in which I barely escaped?  I began reading books, listing to audios, attending personal development seminars, and started to change my way of thinking. Of course that was easier said than done because a lifetime of thought cannot be changed in a day. I made it my mission to become better and to help others improve their thinking so that they too can live in peace. 

Knowing that no matter what you’ve been through or what you’ve experience you can still succeed. Viktor Emil Frankl was an Austrian neurologist and psychiatrist as well as a Holocaust survivor. In his book Man’s search for meaning, he states “When we are no longer able to change a situation, we are challenged to change ourselves.” “Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” 

Though I continued to have minor setbacks in my health I continued to grow and prosper. With a strong focused mind and application of successful principles I began to turn my life around. The learning never ends, and every day I continued to move forward. As I did this, I noticed my life began to improve. My relationships became better, my career became more fulfilling, my patients rehabilitated quicker, and I realized that with a strong self image I could do anything. 

I am now on a mission to teach you the steps that guided me towards turning my life around.  I’m here to let you know that there is a system to improving your overall health, that when followed correctly can eliminate doubt, worry, fear, and stress. There is a system that will guide you away from limitation while moving towards abundance. It will give you more energy, make you stronger, more calm, and will give you in control of your life.  Once you apply this system on a daily basis, you will supercharge your effectiveness as healthcare professionals, because by improving your health, you will better improve the lives of your patients. You can only help others as much as you can help yourself. 


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